Channel: Daniel Jerome

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Description: Music: "Changes" by Justin Bieber @justinbieber .. Choreography & Video: Daniel Jerome Obispo @danieljerome @garagebased .. In 2017 it became very clear that my chronic pain was affecting more of my life than dance. I filmed all of this while just trying to make sense of this very dark & lonely place I was in..hoping that I would use this footage for a project that would help me out of this slump. It was supposed to be an exaggeration of my daily during that time. Just by myself at home w/ too much self-talk & confusion. I was sleeping on the couch for months because I didn’t have the energy to clean my room. I had no motivation to basically do anything, especially after I had just given up on an important callback audition due to my legs & developed so much social anxiety from losing my personality or sense of self. I experienced depersonalization & didn’t know who I was. I became afraid of seeing friends because I wasn’t the same person they knew..I couldn’t dance or connect with music like I once did....I stayed in this cycle for a couple more years....then I made changes that have been bringing me back to how I used to feel w/ much thanks to medication, therapy, meditation, & just being more understanding w/ myself or the signs. It was very scary...not knowing who I was or how to live my life then. I saw no future..no place for me. Not very many people knew exactly the fear I had of myself. I was unable to be conscious of my actions & decisions that were all driven by frustration from dealing w/ constant pain & brain fog. So isolating myself & putting a hold on everything was what felt safe. Though my personality was changing, I knew who I was..who I wanted to be..but I was not aligned with this person I saw..It’s 2020, things are getting a little better..& this song really spoke to me when I first heard the album. Reminded me of that battle of trying to figure out how to become new, but stay as myself. Also how that time was affecting loved ones around me...Sleeping too much, not being able to sleep, not breathing enough, not being able to smile or be present, which reminded of these clips from ‘17. Now w/ the help I’ve been getting & more faith in myself I realized that person I thought I lost never left. That experience & patience helped me finally complete this idea today when it all felt right. 🙏🏼 -Daniel .. More places to find me: youtube.com/danieljerome instagram.com/garagebased (dance content & movement progress) instagram.com/danieljerome (personal & miscellaneous) vm.tiktok.com/bq4urP (@.danieljerome)